Life is neither good nor evil it is simply the place where good and evil exists.... -Seneca-
My mom and I had a fight the other day. The details are too personal for me to post here. I felt so terrible having said those things to her. I really wanted to say sorry but I freeze everytime I try to talk to her. I just want this guilt to pass and wish that everything would return back to normal. 
I woke up today at 9:30 finding no trace of any family member walking around the house. Then it suddenly hit me. Vacation finally!! I usually wake up with everyone still asleep and I usually leave the house with everyone very unwary to wake up.
It's legitimately the end of the first semester! I can now taste the sweet victory of passing the final exams and being able to sleep in bed without school urging you to wake up every 4 o’clock in the morning! (hmmm… I think I’m going to miss that ritual.) Nah!! Not in this lifetime!
I still have another semester to go before I’m finally part of the idle labor force (just the thought of it terrifies me). Well that’s life, I just have to deal with it. Maybe I can just allure those companies with my sense of humor or a song and dance number of their company hymn. That might just work but of course don’t expect a position related to the operations of that company. Maybe they’ll call some friends and help you get to Japan or somewhere that’s in dire need of entertainers. haha! Some luck! You pull your brains out for 4 years in college and that’s what you get?! Well of course pessimism won’t get you anywhere near your goals. You just have to have faith that you can do it and that you’ll be able to land in the job of your dreams.
Before I agonize myself with that thought, I’ll make sure that I spend my remaining time in college in the best way I know how.
I really regretted having wasted my time reading that stupid textbook in international economics! The exam was so hard that you would have been better off by not studying! I feel so stressed out but i still have to study for tomorrow's test. I just needed to blow this steam out of my system...
aargh! i have to doze of! i still have class tom but i just cant sleep...
damn that coffee break!
